Description

By Jess Squires

ISBN: 978-1-84991-659-2
Published: 2011
Pages: 17
Key Themes: Mental Illness, Bipolar Disorder, Psychosis, Biography

Description

“My Brain Orgasm” is an insight into the heart and mind of psychosis, illuminating the positive side of an often negatively portrayed subject. The book is written in real time, as it happened and not in retrospect, and therefore takes the reader on an emotional roller-coaster of a journey as the psychosis develops into what the author believed to be the writing of a bible for the 21st century!

About the Author

Jess Squires was born in London in 1967 and resided there until moving to Brighton, her current home. She has been given various mental health labels in the last 20 years, including bipolar disorder, and she suffers from recurrent psychotic episodes. Jess has channelled her experiences into various creative forms including poetry, pottery, and photography. She loves travelling around the UK and walking in the country with her dog and dreams of living in a camper whilst pursuing writing and photography as a career.

Book Extract

Introduction

Recently I went REALLY mad (more so than my usual day to day sort of madness.) Psychotic, they say. I wrote it all down to try and stop my head getting confused. This is story of my descent into psychosis. This is my bible.
I had been odd for a few days before I began writing it all down. The rest is written here. I didn’t sleep, wash, eat or do anything normal or functional for about 5 days. I was probably kept alive by frequent offerings of coffee from my then girlfriend. I drove everybody mad. I didn’t stop talking. I talked to whoever would listen and when people stopped listening or went to bed, I wrote them VERY IMPORTANT MESSAGES of things I’d found out for them to wake up too.
I have always written down what I call my thinks when I get ill. I find it helps me to get it out of my head and onto the paper (or wall.) This time I couldn’t stop. I wrote for days (when no-one was around to talk to anyway). I thought I was working through the hand of God. Everything in life became a SIGN. For me this period was one of intense excitement and learning, hence the title. I really felt as through my brain was tingling with excitement.
I’ve written it more or less as I wrote it then. Excuse the terrible grammar and my demolition of the English language – I felt it was only true to myself if I rewrote as I did then. My brain was in such a hurry to get things out that my already minimal knowledge of grammar deserted me totally.