Published: 2026
Pages: 77
Key Themes: Love

Description

Carolyn Sidgwick’s Soul Love Journal, inspired by her personal journey of love and loss, offers 15 guided sections for reflection, intention-setting, and gratitude. It’s a valuable tool for anyone experiencing grief, navigating difficult times, or feeling lost in identity. With undated pages, you continue seamlessly—no pressure, no wasted pages. It’s also perfect for practicing the five-minute rule of going within. Follow Carolyn and the Soul Love journey for more journaling tips and her passion for the power of journaling.

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Published: 2026
Pages: 506
Key Themes: Mental Health, Schizophrenia

Description

The books have been written by a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenia
written with zeal for self actualisation and a test to awareness of his inner self, consciousness and may be sum up on what this world we dwell in, in view of pain and suffering. What he feels are the issues related to his
mental health and much more such as his beliefs paradigms of what brought
suffering into the world. Are the gods or deities to be blame because of
suffering should he blame God for allowing suffering in this world? He has partly written his books based on consistency and inconsistency of a child born premature. What sensitive, mysterious or enigmatic repercussions of being a premature child the consequence of its relation to science of medicine, modern-day technology, and ways of life from different
perspectives. His books implies effigies of what dense molecular
structures could stamina, equal, or have the same interplay to the
molecular structure as, that of superman, a crucifix or juju? Implying I am superman might mean as Orunmila I had picked something up from planet Krypton and divested myself of my powers as Orunmila or to
refine myself more based on trials of life. The author is a child born in the UK during the Biafra war in Nigeria he and his immediate elder brother with their mother left the UK for Nigeria by sea just after he was born. If any love is right if ever two stars cross, if ever the touch was right if ever there was love and it is right while relationships we have seems not to fad, it was you and that person you coup and got along with because, we are now at a time when the rain is trickling down the window screen.

About the Author

I lost my mother just after I took resident at my number 13 Gorman road block of flats. Within this period my father Chief (Dr) Frank Anirejuoritse Megbele the Agbueju of Warri Kingdom was on a visit to the United Kingdom with his new and fourth wife Mrs. Tsainomi Ayo Megbele.

After my mothers’ death I received a massage from my father in Nigeria through Mrs. Comfort Iyinboh from Delta state I should not travel to Nigeria for my mothers’ funeral.

No reason was given why I should not be in Nigeria for my mother’s funeral at Ibadan in Oyo state I became distress. I called my immediate elder brother Mr. Omagbemi Oluwagbenga Megbele when I heard my father was about to pay his second visit to the UK after our arrival back into the UK just after mother’s death; I told him I would not let my father enter my council flat.

On my father’s visit to my flat with my brother Mr. Omagbemi, I did not let my father into my flat after which I began feeling unusual, feelings of insecurity. I found myself wandering with long walks but not confused as to where, I was going. It was as if I was carrying great rituals of (Etutu or Ebo) into heaven. Etutu or Ebo in Yuroba means sacrifices to solve problems or suffering. We all know what sacrifice is the giving up or foregoing of some valued thing for the sake of something of greater value or having a more pressing claim. The most complex form of sacrifice one can give is change. Most of us are yet to realize that the spiritual realm like the physical one requires some sort of giving in order to receive.

After the incident at my blocks of flat, about three or four months later without seeing my brother he visited me with a lady friend Ms. Nwamaka now Mrs. Nwamaka Megbele, it was my first time of seeing her and I never knew they were coming; I was not sure of myself of what was going on around me or what was wrong with me.

The same thing happened on this their visit to my flat I would not let my brother and his lady friend into my flat.

One morning as I was walking down to the Woolwich Spray street job centre after my early morning job at the club by Woolwich New Road a police vehicle with two police officers pulled up just by me without asking any question pulled me into their vehicle and drove off.

They took me to the Greenwich hospital at Vanbrugh Hill; after a few discussions with the receptionist, they took me into its mental health ward. This was in 1995 where I was diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic.

I find it difficult believing am going through what I was going through at the time, in spite of it, I did not believe I still had the strength to coup and recap with my every thoughts and feelings which were always sober.

Then I began writing about thing that has happened to me from my childhood as a schizophrenic with premature birth.

I feel fortunate having the opportunity to come out with these epilogues of my life regardless of my illness if I do not come out with it, nobody would know or tell. Have you ever in your life thought of whatever you deed or went through when you were a kid that wasn’t right and wasn’t your fault?

Have you ever thought in your life you had to pay the price for a wrong that was not your fault when you reminiscence? If it’s all gone wrong for you, it’s about time you sit down and tell I told myself one afternoon, it’s all up to me at least I would know if it had been my fault or if, they weren’t mine.

I find myself talking to myself in my sleep and when am awake from my sleep, I hear voices telling me to do things to herm myself, make myself inferior or adhere to what they tell me to do. Each day I find myself going through different stages without knowing if they are mental health issues or not, I find myself feeling depressed with less control of myself are they as a result of my schizophrenia which, I do not wholly accept I believe what is left of me and my appearance is myself residual self image comprising of my digital self. Any one walking along the street, would take me like any other individual walking in our street in London while at the same time I long for people to realise that I have been scotched nevertheless, I pose myself to live as any other normal person would.

I consider I have to reform my digital self so that no one would notice the inconsistencies attached to my mental illness, I have programmed my physically and spiritually to up-hold myself against the beast that rules and exist within me.

My mind and soul seek to live within my very body because it suits my purpose. It’s for a reality having an assurance to completely divest myself with nothing left of me, but just my residual self image, could this be why I am a paranoid schizophrenic?.

The illness has an attribute of making a sufferer live a life of abnormalities such as being senseless to the right applicable things or attitude that are customary when, they are required to be applied in once daily life, they way you view the world its people and its environment. It is often initiated by other people in certain aspects of the illness this can be ascertained by feeling their presence, aura, and mirage or through hearing their voices in such case try to understand the spirit level in which they present or portray themselves.

A dreadful feeling if you care to outlive the illness is you live in fear you cannot control yourself only if you are well-disposed to yourself and to others, having feelings for the safety of your life or wellbeing having such temperament is a good start if one is to outlive or capable of managing with the illness the most dreadful part is that as much as you try the situation are always seems uncertain for the rest of once life.

Published: 2025
Pages: 383
Key Themes: surrogacy, homosexuality and euthanasia

Description

What kind of an existence could this be in which other people can wipe the smiles of
another person’s face? We are here to set ourselves free, if you love someone, it would
all come back to you.
Our existence is partly based on a search for what went wrong before we were created
what wasn’t right at that moment how we can learn from it how they have contributed to
making us who we are now and how our purpose on earth would be justified in a
transcended nature through appeals.
It is what makes perception more than the mere physical stimulation of our sense organs.
It also produces mental imagery, visual and otherwise, which is what makes it possible
for us to think outside the confines of our present perceptual reality of considering
memories of the past and possibilities for the future, and to weigh alternatives against
one another. Imagination makes possible all our thinking about what is, what has been,
and, perhaps most important, what might be.
The author feels he is enough of an artist coupled that the world comprises of enough
for him to draw freely upon his own imagination. God created the world to justify himself
within which he gave us freewill to justify ourselves. The effects of evil and suffering in the
world and what it takes to make humans happy had over centuries resulted to awesome
human talents.
When we look at ourselves in physical, temperamental, attitudes or in whichever way
when we correlate them with suffering and pain produces the best or defined authors of
who we truly are. He wants his readers to ascertain after reading is book if, on his part, he
is psychoproofing.
Ephesians 3:20: Now to him who can do immeasurably more than all we ask or
imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and
in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever! Amen.

About the Author:

In a world of today compered to our world of, yesterday concerning premature birth
what have some parent got to say about men helping their wives to do the house
chores to a point of changing baby nappies?
What would it imply if the husband or wife were raised from a polygamous ground
what would be the rational concordance in respect to parents in Africa or Europe
where they were born or raised?

If they came, through immigration how would this have relevance to men or women
who are celibates or cannot have children. The first part of this books has been titled
‘it’s an expression’ because the author wants to put himself in a position where
he would be assessed mentally, spiritually, psychologically and emotionally partly
also in relation to his other books he is a di-agnosed paranoid schizophrenic.

Published: 2026
Pages: 77
Key Themes: Mental Health, Mental Illness, Awareness

Description

Hello, my name is Jo Rainbow.  I have lifelong mental health difficulties.  I’ve never let that hold me back.  I’ve been a self-harmer for over 40 years.  Now, I often go months without self-harming.

In my first book, “Don’t cut my lifeline”, I wrote about living with self-harm.  In this new book, I hope to show it’s ok to have mental health difficulties.  It’s even better when we can live happily and productively, despite mental health issues.

Self-injury has been my secret friend for about 40 years, at a great cost, both physically and emotionally.

Today, after a lot of tears, therapy and using the Decider Skills, I’m living.

Each new day, I give thanks. I discover something new, and learn a new skill.

If you are self-harming or thinking of self-harm, try to limit the damage you’re inflicting. Also try to reduce the occasions you self-harm.

The following may help.

1. Remember to respect yourself. You are a unique human being. You are special and loved by me.
2. Use only new, clean harming tools.
3. First aid. Remember to clean, dress wounds. If in any doubt, seek medical advice.
4. Treat yourself kindly. If a friend had hurt themselves, no doubt you would help them.

It may be impossible to stop self-harming at the moment. Keep trying to stop. One day this will be a choice, then an unhealthy choice. Finally a choice you do not wish to take.

It is possible to change ourselves, but not always the situation.

* For those who kindly bought my first book, thank you!

One important thing to note:  I spoke of “hearing voices”.  My new psychiatrist assures me, I do not “hear voices”.  The “voices” were intense, repeated strong thoughts.

I apologise unreservedly for any distress I may have caused, unintentionally.

Published: 2026
Pages: 77
Key Themes: Mental Health, Mental Illness, Awareness

Description

Hello, my name is Jo Rainbow.  I have lifelong mental health difficulties.  I’ve never let that hold me back.  I’ve been a self-harmer for over 40 years.  Now, I often go months without self-harming.

In my first book, “Don’t cut my lifeline”, I wrote about living with self-harm.  In this new book, I hope to show it’s ok to have mental health difficulties.  It’s even better when we can live happily and productively, despite mental health issues.

Self-injury has been my secret friend for about 40 years, at a great cost, both physically and emotionally.

Today, after a lot of tears, therapy and using the Decider Skills, I’m living.

Each new day, I give thanks. I discover something new, and learn a new skill.

If you are self-harming or thinking of self-harm, try to limit the damage you’re inflicting. Also try to reduce the occasions you self-harm.

The following may help.

1. Remember to respect yourself. You are a unique human being. You are special and loved by me.
2. Use only new, clean harming tools.
3. First aid. Remember to clean, dress wounds. If in any doubt, seek medical advice.
4. Treat yourself kindly. If a friend had hurt themselves, no doubt you would help them.

It may be impossible to stop self-harming at the moment. Keep trying to stop. One day this will be a choice, then an unhealthy choice. Finally a choice you do not wish to take.

It is possible to change ourselves, but not always the situation.

* For those who kindly bought my first book, thank you!

One important thing to note:  I spoke of “hearing voices”.  My new psychiatrist assures me, I do not “hear voices”.  The “voices” were intense, repeated strong thoughts.

I apologise unreservedly for any distress I may have caused, unintentionally.

Published: 2026
Pages: 103
Key Themes: Mental Health, Mental Illness, Awareness

Description

Hello, my name is Jo Rainbow.  I have lifelong mental health difficulties.  I’ve never let that hold me back.  I’ve been a self-harmer for over 40 years.  Now, I often go months without self-harming.

In my first book, “Don’t cut my lifeline”, I wrote about living with self-harm.  In this new book, I hope to show it’s ok to have mental health difficulties.  It’s even better when we can live happily and productively, despite mental health issues.

Self-injury has been my secret friend for about 40 years, at a great cost, both physically and emotionally.

Today, after a lot of tears, therapy and using the Decider Skills, I’m living.

Each new day, I give thanks. I discover something new, and learn a new skill.

If you are self-harming or thinking of self-harm, try to limit the damage you’re inflicting. Also try to reduce the occasions you self-harm.

The following may help.

1. Remember to respect yourself. You are a unique human being. You are special and loved by me.
2. Use only new, clean harming tools.
3. First aid. Remember to clean, dress wounds. If in any doubt, seek medical advice.
4. Treat yourself kindly. If a friend had hurt themselves, no doubt you would help them.

It may be impossible to stop self-harming at the moment. Keep trying to stop. One day this will be a choice, then an unhealthy choice. Finally a choice you do not wish to take.

It is possible to change ourselves, but not always the situation.

* For those who kindly bought my first book, thank you!

One important thing to note:  I spoke of “hearing voices”.  My new psychiatrist assures me, I do not “hear voices”.  The “voices” were intense, repeated strong thoughts.

I apologise unreservedly for any distress I may have caused, unintentionally.

Published: 2026
Pages: 383
Key Themes: SCHIZOPHRENA QUESTION

About the Author:

He was hospitalised, diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia at Greenwich hospital in 1995. He has been unemployed since late 2008.

He has been the author of several books e.g., 1) Trials of life, 2) Paradigms of my schizophrenia, 3) Memories put into verse, 4) Distinct,5) Memories of Schizophrenia, 6) A picture of health, 7) Imagination at work, 8) Three in one, 9) Recreational, 10) Is it a Misconception.

If you believe knowledge is power read this book the author would, like to know your thoughts! If one man’s meat could be another man’s poison a question is do, we make or create memories for ourselves.

As of October 2025, he hoped to change from using Virgin Media Landline for his broadband only service to BT Landline starting from November 2026 infarct, he is partly being triggered to do that.

Somebody who likes you would substantiate your use of simple common sense. Whenever he wants to prepare African dishes, he does it just after 3.00 PM. During weekdays he uses mouthwash during the weekends he makes use of toothpaste and mouthwash for Heaven compels them (stop pulling the hair of Christ) for every Transubstantiation of his and his disciples are accurate. John 6:55-59.

Portraying dignity without respect for each other is wrong that’s his own opinion! He goes into phase the Falcon bird induces him to have affinity for Cowrie shells. In death the falcon leaves no trace of itself because it divests itself the eagle does to the point of leaving an aura behind. Why do some of us have god marks. In that case, how do we ascertain Omens there are difference within metals and substance.

Published: 2026
Pages: 383
Key Themes: SCHIZOPHRENA QUESTION

About the Author:

He was hospitalised, diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia at Greenwich hospital in 1995. He has been unemployed since late 2008.

He has been the author of several books e.g., 1) Trials of life, 2) Paradigms of my schizophrenia, 3) Memories put into verse, 4) Distinct,5) Memories of Schizophrenia, 6) A picture of health, 7) Imagination at work, 8) Three in one, 9) Recreational, 10) Is it a Misconception.

If you believe knowledge is power read this book the author would, like to know your thoughts! If one man’s meat could be another man’s poison a question is do, we make or create memories for ourselves.

As of October 2025, he hoped to change from using Virgin Media Landline for his broadband only service to BT Landline starting from November 2026 infarct, he is partly being triggered to do that.

Somebody who likes you would substantiate your use of simple common sense. Whenever he wants to prepare African dishes, he does it just after 3.00 PM. During weekdays he uses mouthwash during the weekends he makes use of toothpaste and mouthwash for Heaven compels them (stop pulling the hair of Christ) for every Transubstantiation of his and his disciples are accurate. John 6:55-59.

Portraying dignity without respect for each other is wrong that’s his own opinion! He goes into phase the Falcon bird induces him to have affinity for Cowrie shells. In death the falcon leaves no trace of itself because it divests itself the eagle does to the point of leaving an aura behind. Why do some of us have god marks. In that case, how do we ascertain Omens there are difference within metals and substance.

Published: 2026

Key Themes: relationships, adoption, family, strength

Description

Brompton Bicycle for the Mind aka Apple Tribute.

This Road Movie video is my personal mental health tool used for my mental wealth. I am delighted  to have just completed a ten week advanced  experimental filmmaking course within my local neighbourhood. Contemporary Arts % Learning, 198 Railton Road, Lambeth London United Kingdom. I am and was during this course on a CTO {Community Treatment Order  Mental Health Section], I created the video art and sound art within this video. This video best shows  the contrast of my inner journey best for Apple users if watched using invert colours after first viewed. Please accept my compliments for Jamaican Koffee whose originality is beyond compare. My gratitude also speaks of my Paid Mental Health First Aider during my 198 Contemporary Arts $ Learning Lived Experience.

About the Author

I am a sixty four year old Black English Lesbian and I am currently on a CTO-Community Treatment Order section; and have been continuously on this same CTO for approximately two years since leaving a locked ward psychiatric hospital before hand. I am WhatsApp video call by antipsychotic medication specialists to monitor my consumption of my tablet daily. I have remained on universal credit Jobseeker’s Allowance from five years ago  and regularly check my to-do-list…and write messages to my work coach.

Published: 2026
Pages: 284
Key Themes: Poltical drama a study of dialectics

‘Quite a number of people with very little, and even a total lack of knowledge or theoretical training joined the movement because of its practical significance and its practical successes. ‘If you must unite, Marx wrote to the party leaders, then enter into agreements to satisfy the practical aims of the movement, but do not allow any bargaining over principle, do not make “concessions” in questions of theory. This was Marx’s idea, and yet there are people among us who strive — in his name — to belittle the significance of theory! Without a revolutionary theory there can be no revolutionary movement.’

Lenin, What is to be Done?

Nigel was born in 1959. He had lived a life variously described as ‘colourful’ or ‘checkered’ until he made the turn to both serious academic study and creative writing. As his G.P. of many years standing has said, “Your writing and studying are your therapy Nigel. They are what saved you.’ He has gained since 1988: BA (Open) Political & Social Science, BA Humanities with Creative Writing, MA in English, MA in Creative Witing, MA in English Literature. He writes poetry, prose-fiction, essays on literature, politics, economics, psychology and philosophy. This volume contains poetry and prose fiction as well as well as some political and literary criticism.  After leaving the University his writing will be sustained by Chipmunkapublishing, This volume is a study of dialectics.