Published: 2026
Pages: 506
Key Themes: Mental Health, Schizophrenia

Description

The books have been written by a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenia
written with zeal for self actualisation and a test to awareness of his inner self, consciousness and may be sum up on what this world we dwell in, in view of pain and suffering. What he feels are the issues related to his
mental health and much more such as his beliefs paradigms of what brought
suffering into the world. Are the gods or deities to be blame because of
suffering should he blame God for allowing suffering in this world? He has partly written his books based on consistency and inconsistency of a child born premature. What sensitive, mysterious or enigmatic repercussions of being a premature child the consequence of its relation to science of medicine, modern-day technology, and ways of life from different
perspectives. His books implies effigies of what dense molecular
structures could stamina, equal, or have the same interplay to the
molecular structure as, that of superman, a crucifix or juju? Implying I am superman might mean as Orunmila I had picked something up from planet Krypton and divested myself of my powers as Orunmila or to
refine myself more based on trials of life. The author is a child born in the UK during the Biafra war in Nigeria he and his immediate elder brother with their mother left the UK for Nigeria by sea just after he was born. If any love is right if ever two stars cross, if ever the touch was right if ever there was love and it is right while relationships we have seems not to fad, it was you and that person you coup and got along with because, we are now at a time when the rain is trickling down the window screen.

About the Author

I lost my mother just after I took resident at my number 13 Gorman road block of flats. Within this period my father Chief (Dr) Frank Anirejuoritse Megbele the Agbueju of Warri Kingdom was on a visit to the United Kingdom with his new and fourth wife Mrs. Tsainomi Ayo Megbele.

After my mothers’ death I received a massage from my father in Nigeria through Mrs. Comfort Iyinboh from Delta state I should not travel to Nigeria for my mothers’ funeral.

No reason was given why I should not be in Nigeria for my mother’s funeral at Ibadan in Oyo state I became distress. I called my immediate elder brother Mr. Omagbemi Oluwagbenga Megbele when I heard my father was about to pay his second visit to the UK after our arrival back into the UK just after mother’s death; I told him I would not let my father enter my council flat.

On my father’s visit to my flat with my brother Mr. Omagbemi, I did not let my father into my flat after which I began feeling unusual, feelings of insecurity. I found myself wandering with long walks but not confused as to where, I was going. It was as if I was carrying great rituals of (Etutu or Ebo) into heaven. Etutu or Ebo in Yuroba means sacrifices to solve problems or suffering. We all know what sacrifice is the giving up or foregoing of some valued thing for the sake of something of greater value or having a more pressing claim. The most complex form of sacrifice one can give is change. Most of us are yet to realize that the spiritual realm like the physical one requires some sort of giving in order to receive.

After the incident at my blocks of flat, about three or four months later without seeing my brother he visited me with a lady friend Ms. Nwamaka now Mrs. Nwamaka Megbele, it was my first time of seeing her and I never knew they were coming; I was not sure of myself of what was going on around me or what was wrong with me.

The same thing happened on this their visit to my flat I would not let my brother and his lady friend into my flat.

One morning as I was walking down to the Woolwich Spray street job centre after my early morning job at the club by Woolwich New Road a police vehicle with two police officers pulled up just by me without asking any question pulled me into their vehicle and drove off.

They took me to the Greenwich hospital at Vanbrugh Hill; after a few discussions with the receptionist, they took me into its mental health ward. This was in 1995 where I was diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic.

I find it difficult believing am going through what I was going through at the time, in spite of it, I did not believe I still had the strength to coup and recap with my every thoughts and feelings which were always sober.

Then I began writing about thing that has happened to me from my childhood as a schizophrenic with premature birth.

I feel fortunate having the opportunity to come out with these epilogues of my life regardless of my illness if I do not come out with it, nobody would know or tell. Have you ever in your life thought of whatever you deed or went through when you were a kid that wasn’t right and wasn’t your fault?

Have you ever thought in your life you had to pay the price for a wrong that was not your fault when you reminiscence? If it’s all gone wrong for you, it’s about time you sit down and tell I told myself one afternoon, it’s all up to me at least I would know if it had been my fault or if, they weren’t mine.

I find myself talking to myself in my sleep and when am awake from my sleep, I hear voices telling me to do things to herm myself, make myself inferior or adhere to what they tell me to do. Each day I find myself going through different stages without knowing if they are mental health issues or not, I find myself feeling depressed with less control of myself are they as a result of my schizophrenia which, I do not wholly accept I believe what is left of me and my appearance is myself residual self image comprising of my digital self. Any one walking along the street, would take me like any other individual walking in our street in London while at the same time I long for people to realise that I have been scotched nevertheless, I pose myself to live as any other normal person would.

I consider I have to reform my digital self so that no one would notice the inconsistencies attached to my mental illness, I have programmed my physically and spiritually to up-hold myself against the beast that rules and exist within me.

My mind and soul seek to live within my very body because it suits my purpose. It’s for a reality having an assurance to completely divest myself with nothing left of me, but just my residual self image, could this be why I am a paranoid schizophrenic?.

The illness has an attribute of making a sufferer live a life of abnormalities such as being senseless to the right applicable things or attitude that are customary when, they are required to be applied in once daily life, they way you view the world its people and its environment. It is often initiated by other people in certain aspects of the illness this can be ascertained by feeling their presence, aura, and mirage or through hearing their voices in such case try to understand the spirit level in which they present or portray themselves.

A dreadful feeling if you care to outlive the illness is you live in fear you cannot control yourself only if you are well-disposed to yourself and to others, having feelings for the safety of your life or wellbeing having such temperament is a good start if one is to outlive or capable of managing with the illness the most dreadful part is that as much as you try the situation are always seems uncertain for the rest of once life.

Published: 2025
Pages: 383
Key Themes: surrogacy, homosexuality and euthanasia

Description

What kind of an existence could this be in which other people can wipe the smiles of
another person’s face? We are here to set ourselves free, if you love someone, it would
all come back to you.
Our existence is partly based on a search for what went wrong before we were created
what wasn’t right at that moment how we can learn from it how they have contributed to
making us who we are now and how our purpose on earth would be justified in a
transcended nature through appeals.
It is what makes perception more than the mere physical stimulation of our sense organs.
It also produces mental imagery, visual and otherwise, which is what makes it possible
for us to think outside the confines of our present perceptual reality of considering
memories of the past and possibilities for the future, and to weigh alternatives against
one another. Imagination makes possible all our thinking about what is, what has been,
and, perhaps most important, what might be.
The author feels he is enough of an artist coupled that the world comprises of enough
for him to draw freely upon his own imagination. God created the world to justify himself
within which he gave us freewill to justify ourselves. The effects of evil and suffering in the
world and what it takes to make humans happy had over centuries resulted to awesome
human talents.
When we look at ourselves in physical, temperamental, attitudes or in whichever way
when we correlate them with suffering and pain produces the best or defined authors of
who we truly are. He wants his readers to ascertain after reading is book if, on his part, he
is psychoproofing.
Ephesians 3:20: Now to him who can do immeasurably more than all we ask or
imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and
in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever! Amen.

About the Author:

In a world of today compered to our world of, yesterday concerning premature birth
what have some parent got to say about men helping their wives to do the house
chores to a point of changing baby nappies?
What would it imply if the husband or wife were raised from a polygamous ground
what would be the rational concordance in respect to parents in Africa or Europe
where they were born or raised?

If they came, through immigration how would this have relevance to men or women
who are celibates or cannot have children. The first part of this books has been titled
‘it’s an expression’ because the author wants to put himself in a position where
he would be assessed mentally, spiritually, psychologically and emotionally partly
also in relation to his other books he is a di-agnosed paranoid schizophrenic.

Published: 2026
Pages: 77
Key Themes: Mental Health, Mental Illness, Awareness

Description

Hello, my name is Jo Rainbow.  I have lifelong mental health difficulties.  I’ve never let that hold me back.  I’ve been a self-harmer for over 40 years.  Now, I often go months without self-harming.

In my first book, “Don’t cut my lifeline”, I wrote about living with self-harm.  In this new book, I hope to show it’s ok to have mental health difficulties.  It’s even better when we can live happily and productively, despite mental health issues.

Self-injury has been my secret friend for about 40 years, at a great cost, both physically and emotionally.

Today, after a lot of tears, therapy and using the Decider Skills, I’m living.

Each new day, I give thanks. I discover something new, and learn a new skill.

If you are self-harming or thinking of self-harm, try to limit the damage you’re inflicting. Also try to reduce the occasions you self-harm.

The following may help.

1. Remember to respect yourself. You are a unique human being. You are special and loved by me.
2. Use only new, clean harming tools.
3. First aid. Remember to clean, dress wounds. If in any doubt, seek medical advice.
4. Treat yourself kindly. If a friend had hurt themselves, no doubt you would help them.

It may be impossible to stop self-harming at the moment. Keep trying to stop. One day this will be a choice, then an unhealthy choice. Finally a choice you do not wish to take.

It is possible to change ourselves, but not always the situation.

* For those who kindly bought my first book, thank you!

One important thing to note:  I spoke of “hearing voices”.  My new psychiatrist assures me, I do not “hear voices”.  The “voices” were intense, repeated strong thoughts.

I apologise unreservedly for any distress I may have caused, unintentionally.

Published: 2026
Pages: 284
Key Themes: Poltical drama Mental Health, Poetry, Prose

ISBN: 9781783827893

Nigel was born in 1959. He had lived a life variously described as ‘colourful’ or ‘checkered’ until he made the turn to both serious academic study and creative writing. As his G.P. of many years standing has said, “Your writing and studying are your therapy Nigel. They are what saved you.’ He has gained since 1988: BA (Open) Political & Social Science, BA Humanities with Creative Writing, MA in English, MA in Creative Witing, MA in English Literature. He writes poetry, prose-fiction, essays on literature, politics, economics, psychology and philosophy. This volume contains poetry and prose fiction as well as well as some political and literary criticism.  After leaving the University his writing will be sustained by Chipmunkapublishing.

ISBN: 9781783827886
Published: 2026
Pages: 381
Key Themes: diary, mental health, memoirs

Description

Altered Perception is an eighteen month daily journey from an acute psychiatric hospital admission prior to my 2009 acute psychiatric admission via HMP Holloway Womens Prison.

This diary explores my lesbian sexuality, the parenting role of James, my young biological son in looked after foster care, and my support of a loved one with prostate cancer.

In this diary I reveal that for me it is not so much whether mental illness can be cured, but what one does in life in between each acute psychiatric episode. A kind of walking between the raindrops, until you get wet experience.

About the Author

Yvonne Stewart-Williams was born in 1961 and is a black English European lesbian single mother with a history of mental illness. She is employed and has spent a short time in HMP Holloway Womens Prison and several admissions in a locked women only ward, in a psychiatric hospital.

ISBN:9781783827725
Published: 2025
Pages: 399
Key Themes: Death, Business, life

Description

‘There are stories, and then there are sagas. Some books entertain, others educate, but every so often, you come across a tale so compelling that it does both. This Life in Death Vol.II (1989 – 2024) is one of those books. It is not a work of fiction-though at times, you might think it is. It follows on from where Vol. I left off in this autobiographical rollercoaster ride of riches to rags to riches amid the machinations of the death industry while mixing with royalty, the rich and famous.’

‘Howard Hodgson is one of the UK’s most colourful and complex entrepreneurs of the last fifty years. His descent from a rich and idyllic childhood to slum poverty before rising again to become Entrepreneur of the Year and beyond is both fascinating and inspirational’.

ISBN: 978-1-78382-7671
Published: 2025
Pages: 364
Key Themes: Polital Drama, Mental Health, Poetry, Prose

Marxian Speculations and Conjectures. 

A Marxist analysis of Palestine in historical and theoretical context. A way ahead with Trotsky’s theory of Permanent Revolution.

Nigel was born in 1959. He had lived a life variously described as ‘colourful’ or ‘checkered’ until  he made the turn to both serious academic study and creative writing. As his G.P. of many years standing has said, “Your writing and studying are your therapy Nigel. They are what saved you.’ He has gained since 1988: BA (Open) Political & Social Science, BA Humanities with Creative Writing, MA in English, MA in Creative Witing, MA in English Literature. He writes poetry, prose-fiction, essays on literature, politics, economics, psychology and philosophy. This volume contains poetry and prose fiction as well as a play.

This has been sustained by Chipmunkapublishing.

ISBN: 978-1-78382-7527
Published: 2025
Pages: 364
Key Themes: Mental Health, Poetry, Prose

Nigel was born in 1959. He had lived a life variously described as ‘colourful’ or ‘checkered’ until  he made the turn to both serious academic study and creative writing. As his G.P. of many years standing has said, “Your writing and studying are your therapy Nigel. They are what saved you.’ He has gained since 1988: BA (Open) Political & Social Science, BA Humanities with Creative Writing, MA in English, MA in Creative Witing, MA in English Literature. He writes poetry, prose-fiction, essays on literature, politics, economics, psychology and philosophy. This volume contains poetry and prose fiction as well as a play.

This has been sustained by Chipmunkapublishing.

ISBN: 978-1-78382-7510
Published: 2025
Pages: 174
Key Themes: Mental Health, Poetry, Prose

Description

In my craft or sullen art

Exercised in the still night

When only the moon rages

And the lovers lie abed

With all their griefs in their arms,

I labour by singing light

Not for ambition or bread

Or the strut and trade of charms

On the ivory stages

But for the common wages

Of their most secret heart.

• In My Craft or Sullen Art [extract]. by Dylan Thomas.

Nigel read these lines at age eleven and they became almost a mantra which would remain with him throughout his life. Sometimes the night was very dark, but he came through. This is a book about literature and ideas concerning literature. Nigel’s life was careering out of control until 1988 when he began serious academic study with the Open University. It began when he was a patient in one of those rambling asylums and has continued since. He has gained two Bachelors of Art 2/1 and two Master’s Degrees with Merit. He awaits the result of a third Master’s Degree. Also being published by Chipmunkapublishing has made the journey meaningful.

ISBN:9781783827169
Published: 2024
Pages: 363
Key Themes: Death, Business, life

Description

This is a true story of riches to rags to riches, by one of Britain’s most colourful entrepreneurs of the last 50 years. It records seventy years of British social and political history by someone who was there and was nicknamed by the media ‘Mr Death’. Its backdrop is the taboo subject of death and the machinations of the funeral industry. It has amazing personal troughs and peaks that are described with the honesty of ‘open-heart surgery’ by a writer is encouraging you to ‘give it a go’. It is pacey, racy, irreverent, tragic, uplifting but also completely true.

About the Author

Howard Hodgson is recognised as the man who has shaped the face of British funerals over the last 50 years. His success and ‘enfant terrible’ image in the last quarter of the 20th century is well recorded by the media. However, he has recorded even bigger successes since the Millennium.